Draft from The Past
I had barely put myself back together after a really deep heartbreak, and I didn't change for the better. I grew cold toward the world, acting like it had stolen the most precious part of me and blaming it for all my pain. But people change when life gets hard. Pain freezes something inside you, and after a while, you just get used to living with the chill. Then, out of nowhere, something soft and sweet comes along. When you’re used to the cold, warmth feels strange. It frightens you. You pull away from happiness because you're terrified it won't last and you know your heart can't take being broken a second time. You worry you’ll never find someone who will hold your hand and walk with you through all your messy, broken pieces to help you feel again. So, you convince yourself that love isn't for you, and you retreat back into your shell to stay safe. (February 2017) Reading those words again after more than 9 years, I wish I could tell my younger self that things ...
